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I can't remember how it happened but I started following Amanda Palmer on Twitter a few months or so ago without having ever listened to any of her music (at least not knowingly, turns out I did know some of it), I simply found her tweets funny and inspiring. I then went looking for her music and liked what I heard, Map of Tasmania going viral on Tumblr was a lot of fun, the video for it was fantastic as well. Today she linked to her blog and I read the latest post. And then another... and another... and I'm still scrolling but I had to stop for a moment to share THIS:



"In My Mind" Music Video from Amanda Palmer on Vimeo.


Watch it in HD and just LOOK at it. I LOVE it. Such a beautiful video and a fantastic song (which I strongly relate to). Not only do I implore you to watch it but also read the blog that describes it's genesis which in itself is inspiring and wonderful.

I love the kind of spontaneous creativity that led to this gorgeous video. I have always loved film making but never really pursued it since college, this has got me really excited about the possibilities again.

In my mind

In a future five years from now

I'm a hundred and twenty pounds

And I never get hungover

Because I

Will be the picture of discipline

Never minding what state I'm in

And I will be someone I admire

And it's funny how I imagined

That I would be that person now

But it does not seem to have happened

Maybe I've just forgotten how

To see

That I'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be

And in my mind

In the far-away here-and-now

I've become in-control somehow

And I never lose my wallet

Because I

Will be the picture of discipline

Never fucking-up anything

And I'll be a good defensive driver

And it's funny how I imagined

That I would be that person now

But it does not seem to have happened

Maybe I've just forgotten how

To see

That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be

And in my mind

When I'm old I am beautiful,

Planting tulips and vegetables

Which I will mindfully watch over

Not like me now

I'm so busy with everything

That I don't look at anything

But I'm sure I'll look when I am older

And it's funny how I imagined

That I could be that person now

That that's not what I want

But that's what I wanted

That I'd be giving up somehow

How strange to see

That I don't want to be the person that I want to be

And in my mind

I imagine so many things

Things that aren't really happening

And when they put me in the ground

I'll start pounding the lid,

Saying, "I haven't finished yet,

I still have a tattoo to get,

That says, 'I'm living in the moment'"

And it's funny how I imagined

That I could win this win-less fight

Maybe it isn't all that funny

That I've been fighting all my life

But maybe I have to think it's funny

If I want to live before I die

And maybe it's funniest of all

To think I'll die before I actually

See

That I am exactly the person that I want to be.

Fuck yes.

I am exactly the person that I want to be.